It`s slow and steady

I do hope that everyone had a wonderful Christmas...

I and the family certainly did...

And naturally too much food was on offer but this year i didn`t over indulge...

For those of you who don`t already know things on the home front have taken a turn for the better...

My hubby and I have sorted through some issues and as of Sunday he will be home again...

We know that we still have things to sort through but this time around we are going to be open and honest with each other and naturally deal with the situation straight away instead of stewing and letting things get way out of control...

Life certainly has been wonderful for the two of us this last week...

Taking time out for ourselves for a change ...

Which is something we both should have done some time ago...

You live and learn....

Here we are adults and we still stuff things up...lol..

So now we`re working on a day to day basis and we`re working together...

i`ve had a good heart to heart with the kids and let them know of our intentions and that we want to take time for ourselves once in a while ...

Which means i will want some help from the older two when it comes to hubby and myself wanting to go out on the occasional day or evening when it comes to our youngest...

everyone is willing at this time to do their part so with everyone on board i think we may survive...

Everything is crossed...lol

No not really....

This is what we both want and this was a reality check for the two of us...

The love naturally was still there but neither of us knew it until we were apart...

R.I.P Kirky...You will be sadly missed

I received an email asking about Kirky and her wherabouts....I did a bit of enquiring and yes our beloved Kirky has passed away....

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Here is a passage that was written for her...

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18 Dec 2007 12:58 PM

I just recieved this note from a young lady on Yahoo that knew KIRKY...

This is the repost from her I just read:I was just looking at Kirky's site and wanted to let you know that she passed away . Her daughter and law wrote this to our yahoo group. I thought id share it with you.

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Lyn Welsh-Kirk, known as 'Kirky' by most of you, fought hard through her illness, but sadly lost the battle last night. She was declared deseased at aproximatly 8.10pm on the 17th of Decenber 2007.

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Lyn wassurrounded by friends and family when she passed.We all love her dearly and will miss her so very much!You people in her yahoo groups made her extremely happy!

She alwaysspoke of you and cared for you all deeply. She requested that I letyou know of her passing and to remind you of your importance in herlife. The following is a poem she had saved in her computer:

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God Saw YouGod saw you getting tired

And a cure was not to be,

So he put his arms around you

And whispered "Come to me.

"With tearful eyes we watched you,

And saw you pass away.

Although we loved you dearly

We could not make you stay

A golden heart stopped beating

Hard working hands at rest,

God broke our heartsTo prove to us

He only takes the best.

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God Bless you all, and never forget the wonderful woman 'Kirky' was. God Bless you all, and never forget the wonderful woman 'Kirky' was.Sincerely Sara Brown, Kirky's daught-in-lawand the rest of the familyKirky a Koori in Parkes. Oz.http://www.kirkyskraftsandchitchat.bigblog.com.auKirky was a QUEEN and GOOD FRIEND...

I will miss her but know I will see her again on the OTHER SIDE someday....

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Rest in Peace my wonderful friend !

Taking some R & R

Hi everyone...Well as most of you know life at home has been pretty stressful for me due to Matt`s health and now also the kids....So i`m taking a few days off and taking a break from blogging so I can recharge myself mentally and physically...I will be back....So keep well everyone and talk with you all soon.....

Looks like Summer is here

It looks as though Spring has left us and Summer is here...By Saturday they are claiming we will be in the high 30`s so the pool should be getting a bit of a workout this week....

Off to take Krystal to her old school tomorrow to re-enrol her....At least she has seen how the other side lives so to speak...lol....She also starts work Wednesday so her life is getting back on track....

Daniel has a pupil free day tomorrow (wonderful).....Daniel and I put up our Xmas tree yesterday and i noticed all the decorations are now up in the big department stores....I just can`t believe how quickly it has come around this year....

I look back at the year and so much has happened and the year isn`t even over with....The kids have been making themselves scarce this weekend, especially the older two....Home life hasn`t been terribly happy for them and I can understand why they want to get out.....

Matt has basically given up all hope....I can`t say anything more....Since Friday he has stayed in bed and won`t move.....We hardly talk now as he has nothing positive to say and me being the positive one won`t listen to any negativity....So best just not to talk for now.....Can`t get into any arguments that way...lol....

Wednesday he has to get up out of bed as he has to take his mother out on Thursday....He will be staying at his mothers Wednesday night so with some luck she may be of some help with him.....Daniel is going to catch the bus to school with the two older ones...Just hope he stays at school but I have to trust him....

That`s about it for now.....Just keeping my nose clean and staying away from trouble...lol....

Hope you are all having a great weekend.....

I`d like to rub today out and start again....PLEASE

All I can say is what a shit of a day....

It started off your normal quiet non event happening kinda day but then

POW!!!!!

I got a phone call from Krystal this afternoon and Joshua had been punched in the face by an older kid who is nothing but trouble...

Found out that this kid`s father is the one that threatened Daniel that time when Daniel flipped the bird at him....

So I quickly raced down to get the kids and his face was all swollen but his nose thankfully had stopped bleeding and wasn`t broken...

I was wild...So much so that I took All the kids down to the local police station and reported it...

Then I find out from this really nice officer that this kid has a record a mile long....

He actually said to me this kid has had more charges against him than I have had hot dinners....

He said to me really to take the matter further would just create more problems for me and the family....

So it`s on record for now and if anything else happens then we can have the first report brought back out and take action....

Then you wouldn`t believe it while we were in there making out the report who did they drag in handcuffed but this kid.....

Apparently they have been looking for him for quite some time now and he did something really bad after the attack on Joshua....

But what shit`s me the most is he will get a slap on the wrist because he is only 17....Then it`s back out into the streets to cause more havoc and mayhem for innocent bystanders...

After that I finally arrived home at 7pm and Matt had a call from his doctors about the results to do with his liver...

Not good news i`m afraid...

Seems the liver is severely damaged and the pancrea`s

(think that`s how you spell it)

Neither is functioning properly....

So now the doctor is weighing up what can be done but by the sounds of things it isn`t positive news...

So nice way to start the weekend...lol

If you don`t laugh you`ld cry....

Just have to see what`s around the corner now...

Have a great weekend everyone...

It`s going to be a hot one here....

Didn`t take long for the kids to be sick all at once

Good morning all...

Well it hasn`t been a good start as all the kids now have this rotten cold...

It didn`t take long to go through the house...

Touch wood i`m going to stay safe...lol

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Krystal finished her online induction with her job and she now starts work on the 14th of this month...

She is really looking forward to it...

So now we have to go out and buy some black pants, white shirt and black tie up shoes....

I`m off to the shops this morning and i`m going to leave the kids to fend for themselves...

Hopefully I come home to a house that is still in one piece...

Daniel had an episode lastnight so anything can and is likely to be possible...

Good evening

A bit rude isn`t it...lol....

Well it`s not been much of a day today....

Had to ring Krystal`s old school to make an appointment to re-enrol her for next year...

She isn`t terribly happy where she is....

The all girls school has spoilt her...lol...

So Monday next week it`s back there to do all the paper work again...

Then there was the lawnmower looking at me and I thought Nup i`m not going anywhere near you today....

I just wasn`t in the mood for a fight with it...So instead I cleaned the pool as we are in for some warm weather come the weekend and no doubtly Daniel will want to use it...

Joshua has come down with a cold again...

Hope he keeps it to himself...

Then I did the most bizarre thing today...

I rang one of my old work collegues whom I haven`t spoken to in about 3 years...

I honestly didn`t expect them to still be working there but I was delighted to hear they were...So we are going to catch up for coffee in a couple of weeks....It`s been 10 years since I have left there and actually seen this person...

So I suppose we will both get a bit of a shock seeing each other again after all this time....

Well that`s about it for me tonight....

Off to watch my All Saints...

Never missed a show yet and i`m not about too...lol...

Hope you all had a great day and I`ll do the rounds after...

Love to you all...

I had a great day out and busy busy busy today

Finally the rain has stopped

I was able to get outside and do those jobs that I have been itching to do...

Firstly it was to pull the canvas off and stitch it back together...

Sewing was the easy part...

Trying to figure out how to set the sewing machine up was the hard part...

I always manage to have trouble with that bobbin thingy underneath and after an hour of perservering I succeeded...lol

Damn who said sewing was easy...hahaha

Caught up with the washing finally , all washed dried and put away...

This girl has worked out on how not to iron...One less job to worry about...lol

Then it was onto the lawns...

OMG i`m going to kill that lawnmower before it kills me....

I get it started ok and it`ll run for about 30 seconds then it`ll konk out on me...

Took me twice as long to mow just the back lawn...I still have the front to do but i`m going to leave that for tomorrow...

Krystal and I had a wonderful day out together on Saturday and I`m going to try to at least go out with her on a monthly basis...It did me the world of good and she enjoyed it too...

I spoilt myself by buying 2 summer dresses which only cost me $12 each...

Bought a few things for the home and of course a bag of lollies for Daniel because he was a good boy for his dad...

Well i`m in the process of making tea...Just cold chicken and salad tonight...The diet is still going to plan Tamaris...

Hope you managed to be a good girl too...lol

Hope you all had a lovely weekend....

I`ll do the rounds after finishing off tea....

By the way I don`t think Bigblog is getting much activity these days....Very quiet over there....Any wonder...Most are here...lol...

Bye

Thank goodness the weekend is here

Good evening all...It`s been quite a week....Sick kids , sick husband and a missing cat which still hasn`t come home....And I don`t think he will be now...

We`ve had so much rain over the last week and my yard looks like an over grown jungle....I have this fettish where I don`t like letting the lawn get too out of hand and it`s depressing looking at it so I`ve tried not to peek my head out the back door...lol...

Looking forward to tomorrow as Krystal and I are going to have a girls day out...She wants to take me out for lunch and just do girlie things like SHOPPING....I must admit I do like to do this and it gives us time to have a mum daughter chat....Now that she is getting older it`s great having the female company....We can talk about anything together and we both understand each other really well....In reality we are more good friends but she knows not to push me too far or the mother kicks back in...lol

I`m still trying to master this new computer system I have....I`ve got Microsoft Outlook 2007 installed and it`s a totally different ball game altogether....I`m getting lost....Not hard for me lately...lol...I`m sure once I play around a bit with it i`ll master it but it is very daunting like anything is when it`s new....

Well I hope you all have a lovely weekend...Let`s hope this one doesn`t fly by too quickly...Take care and stay safe.....

A drizzly kind of day

What can I say...It`s been a nothing sort of day because the weather hasn`t been the best for me to be able to get outside and do the gardening...It has rained for most of today and looks like it maybe like this for the next few days....Not that i`m complaining...Firstly we need the rain and secondly get`s me out of doing those chores...lol

Daniel decided he would take off and go Trick or Treating tonight without letting me know....Little bugga he is.....lol....He did come home with some chockies much to my delight...NOT!!!!...I`m trying to keep him off these sorts of things as they do tend to set him off in his mood swings....Looks like an early night for him....

On BB i wrote that our cat has been missing for 4 days ....He still isn`t home tonight so i`m not feeling too positive about his well being...Daniel keeps asking if he (being the cat) has come home....You see it`s Daniel`s cat...I bought him as a kitten for Daniel and they were very close....

Well hope you all had a lovely day and tomorrow is a better one again....

The week has started off well

This is a strawberry that I grew all on my own and best of all was I beat my son to it....lol...He is always getting out at my strawberries before I even have a chance to see how they`re going....Well today I got one on him and it tasted delicious...hahaha

We had some extremely good news tonight...Krystal got the job at Target and we are all so happy for her....None more so than me....It`ll boost back her confidence and I must say that this job is a darn better one than Hungry Jacks....At least she`ll be able to better herself if she wants too.....

Also I don`t know what has happened but my hubby has changed his tune as well....Not sure whether he has found this blog and he read how I felt but the turn around is amazing....For 3 days in a row he has been out of bed in the mornings and has stayed up all day.....He even went as far as going shopping with me today....I`m just dumb founded....I asked him why the sudden turn around with him being up and about and he said to me that he just has to get past with what`s going on with him otherwise he is going to wither away.....

Geez I`ve been telling him that for months....lol....Anyway it`s nice to have him back ....He will still be moving into his own place eventually as he still strongly believes that is the right thing for him to do....I`m ok with it!!!!!.....

So touch wood things are looking up for this family.....Touching lots of wood here as i type....lol....Hope everyone else`s day was a good one....We seem to be having alot of storms along the east coast......It`s been batten down the hatches.....Stay safe all..

Just one of those days

Innocent looking picture of a baby isn`t it.....Damn I wish that kids could stay that way...lol

My lot have been driving me nuts today and the weather hasn`t helped....

It`s been cold wet and windy here today and the boys have been at each other all day...

You know that niggling and taunting that goes on ....

Grrrr....

Then I find a lovely pile of dirty clothes waiting for me in the laundry this morning....

Teenage son thought he would clean out his room today and decided to bring out his weeks supply of dirty laundry....

Needless to say I wasn`t impressed as I honestly thought I had caught up....

Oh well if his school clothes don`t dry in time looks like he may be going to school in the nude tomorrow...lol

Daylight saving started today and I haven`t woken in the best of moods....

I`m still having difficulty in getting a good nights sleep and if my hubby moves i`m awake....

And when i`m awake I have to get up....

So out of bed this morning at 7:30 am

On a Sunday morning....

Not good I can assure you....

The kids aren`t too happy with me at the moment as i`m running the fridge, freezer and pantry down to bare minimum ...

Reason being that in 3 weeks time our Chrisco will be arriving...

I have ordered nearly $2000 worth of food

It may seem alot but paying it over the year I don`t miss the money....

So this time of year I buy just the essentials to get us through until it arrives....

Hence , makes for some very unhappy kids until of course Chrisco arrives...lol

Boys had a great day out

The kids had a great day out crabbing today

Well the boys did

They caught alot of crabs and couldn`t wait to get home and cook them

Mum of course ended up cleaning the mess...lol

Krystal ended up spending the day with her father

and he even came back afterwards and sat down with us to have a civil conversation

Now why can`t it be like that all the time...

I may have to take Krystal to the doctors tomorrow as it looks like she may have an infection in one of her eyes...The worst part is she has been using my eyeliner (a thing daughters do) lol and now my eye is starting to feel a little sore...

It seems blogspot may be getting an invasion by bigblog users....I`ve seen on terry`s post that lonz had made the move and now also Justice Joe is having a look around....Poor Bigblog may end up with no one left soon...lol

We have finally received some rain tonight....The front garden certainly needs it...The wind finally died down and I heard that there were a few trees that came down in places....

Best be off....Hope your weekend has been going well and Janelle hope the party goes well and not too many sore heads tomorrow...lol

A sleep in tomorrow is needed

Well It`s been a long day today....Sleeping in with my son last night maybe wasn`t such a good idea....I just wanted to get a good nights sleep and the little love gave up his bed for me and he slept on a mattress on the floor....But do you think I could sleep....NO!!!!....lol....

It looks like the boys maybe going crabbing tomorrow ....I`ll wait and see if it does happen or not....Krystal and I will be home doing absolutely nothing which sounds good to me as it`s going to be a warm one here....31 degrees....

Also daylight savings starts this weekend so i`m quite sure come Monday morning there are going to be a few grumpy people in this house including me...lol...But once we do get used to it things will be great....The kids like it as they can stay out longer without mum hasseling them to be home before dark.....My favourite rule especially with the older two...lol....

Hope you all have a great weekend.....I`m looking forward to just me and my girl tomorrow.....

I`m drowing here

Sorry everyone but this has been one of my down weeks.....Feeling like absolutely everything is getting on top of me....My husband refuses to get out of bed these days and doesn`t help me mentally or physically anymore....This has been going on for months and to be honest I feel like a single woman with four children...Not three....

I know he does have some bad days but (yes there is that but) he`s choosing not to help himself anymore.....I can`t do anymore ....I can`t summon up the strength to will him to help himself....

It seems life is one big burden to him but only us as a family....It seems when it comes to his mother or his girls from his first marriage he has no difficulty in getting out and about to do whatever with them but when it comes to me and the kids it`s a different story.....

He used to come shopping with me....Nothing....When it comes to the car I`m having to make sure everything is in running order....The kids he never does anything with them....And then there`s me....Having to do absolutely everything inside and out.....

I have sacrificed 10 years of my life to this man because i love him....I gave up a career that I loved.....If it wasn`t for my friends on msn who help me get through I think I would have gone mad by now....But then that`s another story .....I get twenty questions on whom I`m talking too....What are we talking about????..Blah Blah Blah....

It`s like hello aren`t I allowed to have a life.....Then there`s all the accusations ....I don`t need to go into detail but you know what I mean.....I feel like i`m in a prison serving a life sentence and there is no escape......

Sorry everyone ...You don`t need to comment on this blog...It just get`s it all out of my system....

A day I would rather forget

To be honest I don`t think I could have asked for a worse day....And it was supposed to be happy....

Today was Matt`s and my Wedding Anniversary...7 years gone by already.....But instead of a day of celebration it turned out to be miserable....

Firstly Matt was sick and bed ridden all day...

Then the weather was miserable.....I couldn`t get outside to do anything that I had planned...

And for the final blow.....

My sister rang me to tell me she has cancer....

OMG could it be any worse.....

I did go around and see her late this afternoon....She is in high spirits which is a good sign....So now they will operate to remove the cancer and while she is under they will insert into her bladder a bout of chemo....This is where the cancer has started to form.....She showed me a picture of it tonight when they did the ultra sound and it looks like a peice of coral growing....

Fascinating to look at but wanting it out of her body for good.....

I feel better now for seeing her and i`m positive that she will be ok....It`s been 6 months sice her last checkup as she has been having trouble with growths for quite sometime now so she is closely monitored....But boy in that 6 months it`s grown so quickly.....

I`ll keep you up to date on how her progress goes.....

Better get myself to bed.....

Today is a day I would rather forget and start a fresh tomorrow....

Goodnight all......

Nice to see my kids happy

Not too sure what I did with the last entry....One hell of a huge gap between blogs though...lol...Oh well it`s definitely a learning process for me....I know i`ll get the hang of things eventually.... The kids had a really great weekend this week and i`m so glad....Usually it`s all doom and gloom for them so to see them actually all go out together as brothers and sister was a great sense of satisfaction for me..... Poor Krystal though has ended up with sun stroke....She went out today with her cousin and whilst out she threw up....Felt faint and she is very hot also.....A bad headache as well which does indicate to me sun stroke....She went to bed early tonight without tea...So hopefully she will feel a little better tomorrow....I`ve been trying to push the fluids into her ..... Well not long to christmas now...My decorations are slowly starting to mount as i`ve been vigilant in buying a couple each week.....Out with the old and in with the new....lol.... Have a great week everyone...They seem to be flying now....

How true is that....Since having trouble with BB my house has been lovely and clean....lol..

I think i may have just done some shit stirring over there in blogland but I don`t care...I say it how it is and if they can`t deal with it then it`s their problem...Bloody boys club...It`s sickening....

Anyway we are in for some hot weather this weekend...Not good as I don`t particularly cope very well in the heat....Another week and we start daylight savings...Now that I can handle...I love it...All that extra daylight just so I can do extra jobs...LOL....

Got out in the garden yesterday and yes I couldn`t help myself in buying yet again some more flowers....I love bright colours in the garden and the smell it`s so refreshing and clean....Just wish my sinus`s would agree with me....

Well I had better get off my behind and get some washing and anything else that needs doing...Have a wonderful day....

BB just frustrates me to tears

Well here i am and it looks like it may be a permanant thing as BB or for those of you who don`t know what BB stands for (BIGBLOG) has finally broken my spirit....No faith left in them....For days now I have been struggling to open up blogs , leave comments or do posts.... I`m sure they are out to close it down altogether the way they are going....

So now it`s time to see what this site can offer me...Learn all the tricks of the trade.....I`m a woman on a mission and if I can`t get to blog OMG I could commit suicide...lol....

A place where I can vent my frustrations

Hello ...I`ve decided to make up a blog here because currently where I am I haven`t the privacy...You see my husband knows about my current blog so when I want to whinge about him and believe me there are times when I do , I can`t because he reads my blogs....

Well now I can whinge all I like as he won`t find this one...LOL....Cruel I know but hey a girl has to have her privacy....

So I will still be using my old blog and when I feel the need to get something off my chest I will use this blog...Make sense...GOOD!!!!....LOL....