It`s looking a lot like Christmas

It`s come around way too quick for me this year and I am in no way ready for it...

I have no enthusiasm what so ever...

Thankfully I did my Christmas shopping throughout the year otherwise things would be grim for the kids...

I`ve had some pretty stressful days, actually, honestly since hubby has left stress arrived...

Rotten mongrel of a thing...(stress that is)

I`ve had more than my fair share of dealing with our government departments and I hope i`ve seen the last of them...

I feel like i`ve been thrown to the wolves and mentally i`m not coping...

One good thing to come from all of this is I have shed the excess weight I had gained...

Having no appetite tends to do that to you..

In less than two weeks I have lost a whole dress size....

The bad thing is now I need a new wardrobe of clothes...lol

On the job hunting side I have put my name down at just about every shop in our local area..

I`m praying that I hear something from someone soon...

I just need someone to give me a go but not having worked in 12 years doesn`t look good on a resume....

As for hubby well we are talking at least...

We`ve decided it best that we live seperately for a while but still be together..

Make sense????....lol

Formal night

Today was utter chaos LITERALLY....

If you have a teenage daughter you`ll know exactly where i`m coming from...

You see it was formal night..

The events of all events..

And everything had to be perfect from the hair down to the shoes...

OMG i`m so glad i`ll have to only go through this ONCE.....

But all jokes aside I am so terribly proud of my daughter and what she has achieved...

And I was extremely happy that my son has finally come around also....

Below is the finished result of my daughter Krystal after 5 hours of getting ready...

Yes 5 hours folks...

And she had a cheek to tell me it was my fault for making her be a girl....lol

As for the son well men can relate to this..

10 minutes....

Yep the male gender certainly have it easy in more ways than one...

A reality check

Isn`t it interesting life in general?...

You make plans for your future only for them to fall apart before your very eyes...

Twice now this has happened to me and i`m pretty sure I won`t be going back for thirds...

One could say that my life has been completely turned around as now I find myself as a single mum once again...

Yes my husband whom I have cared for over the past 14 years didn`t like the conversation we had over the weekend about how I would like him to do more for me and our children...

This was part of a long overdue conversation that needed to be had...

It was easier for him to walk out on us apparently rather than try to work something out...

So now I find myself feeling rather lost, confused and overwhelmed with the situation that has suddenly been thrusted upon me.....

I`ve had to be strong and have my witts about myself these past 48 hours...

Not much in the sleep department and plenty of phone calls to the relevant government departments have certainly kept me busy....

I am starting to feel anxious as reality is sinking in that I am about to be thrusted in to the big wide world again seeking a job....

In actual fact when you have been surrounded by the same 4 walls for the past 14 years doing what you know best and to have it pulled from under your feet it`s pretty damn scary...

For me anyway....

BUT i`m sure with time and the right sort of people around me I as a person will, yes I will be a better person for the experience...

For now I am making sure that my kids don`t suffer in any way, shape or form....

As a mother I will always be there for them and I know that they will always be there for me too.....

My GENUINE reasons

Good grief "I have been slack" where blogging is concerned....

I have genuine reasons though..

:Do you believe me"?

No I wouldn`t either...lol

Life has been rather topsy turvey though...

Krystal with her HSC and troubles with the boy at school...

Then health issues with the hubby...

Oh did I mention sibling issues as well.....

Ah yes just another day in "Days of our Life"...lol

That`s what you get for being head honcho of the family...You wear everyone elses problems and basically there is no time for yourself...

The things you love to do such as

BLOGGING....

So people i`m on a tight schedule...

Tonight`s entertainment will be Krystals Valourdictory or in easy to understand language "her graduation"...

And won`t it be fun spending time with the ex outlaws....

Things haven`t been exactly rosey there since the exit of my teenage son..

Who mind you still hasn`t spoken to me since June, his departure date....

So i`m about to put on a brave face, grit my teeth and be on my best behaviour for my daughters sake....

Even though all I want to do is maybe throw something at them like tomatoes...

Wish me luck...

I`ll be needing it plus more...lol

Who needs duck hunting when they come to you

With daylight saving it gives me the opportunity to do some extra chores outside so last night I thought I would go potter around in the garden...

I walked out into the backyard and was very surprised at what I saw swimming around in the pool......

I couldn`t quite believe my eyes so I quickly but quietly ran back inside to get the trusty camera and take a few snaps.....

Daniel my youngest thought it might be a good idea to feed him whilst he was here swimming around in the pool as if he had taken ownership....

Cheeky if you ask me...lol

Hubby reckons not to be surprised if the whole family turns up soon...

Now won`t that be fun....

Personally I was thinking Christmas dinner....

sebaceous nevas operation

I have had an incredible amount of feedback with people having or knowing someone who have a sebaceous nevas....

A while ago I told you of my son booked in to hospital to have it removed as it was giving him lots of grief especially now that he is going through the teeange years....

The operation went well with only one slight hic cup and that was trying to get the anesethtic to work.....

55 staples later and a bit of a sore head he is minus that annoying growth on his head....

Now he has self esteem back and not worrying about trying to cover it up....

I`m glad for his sake that we did go ahead with the operation and that there were no hidden complications.....

He has since had the staples removed and had a final check over and has been given the all clear...

No more follow ups and it`s goodbye sebaceous nevas....

Swine flu still kicking around

Of late home life has been wearing me down...

Probably due to the fact that hubby now being on this new medication has been terribly moody...He`s not sleeping well which rubs off on to me as he is keeping me awake also....

Then there was school holidays....Overall the kids weren`t too bad..

Krystal was hardly home ,staying at friends but when she was home I was at her beck and call...You know "mum`s taxi service".....

Daniel well he was easily entertained with the Wii....Actually he was hooked

Up all hours of the morning playing the games....Maybe that had something to do with me not sleeping??..lol...

And boy did I suffer also from playing...Muscles ached for days but i`m a champion at the bowling...I scored a gold medal....Whose the champ???...lol

Now we have another dilemma..

Looks like Krystal has swine flu....

A friend of hers was at a party sharing drinks , then decides to tell everyone after the fact that she has swine flu....

I took her down to the hospital this morning as she looked dreadful only to be told they don`t test for it anymore...All we can do is lock her in her room for a week....

Honestly though some people have no brains....They don`t seem to get the fact that this flu can kill people especially high risk people such as my hubby and youngest son...

So they are being shipped off to stay at hubby`s brothers place for at least a week while I ride it out with Krystal....

And this means no starting back at school tomorrow...

That`s my luck....lol...

On a much happier note I have finally made contact with some former work colleagues on Facebook...It`s been 12 years since having any contact with them..We have so much catching up to do...Alot has happened in 12 years.....

For the crackpots in my life

An elderly Chinese woman had two large pots, each hung on the ends ofa pole which she carried across her neck.

One of the pots had a crack in it while the other pot was perfect andalways delivered a full portion of water.At the end of the long walks from the stream to the house, the crackedpot arrived only half full. For a full two years this went on daily, with the woman bringing homeonly one and a half pots of water..

Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments.But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, andmiserable that it could only do ha lf of what it had been made to do.

After two years of what it perceived to be bitter failure, it spoke tothe woman one day by the stream.'I am ashamed of myself, because this crack in my side causes water toleak out all the way back to your house.

'The old woman smiled, 'Did you notice that there are flowers on yourside of the path, but not on the other pot's side?''That's because I have always known about your flaw, so I plantedflower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walkback, you water them.

'For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers todecorate the table.Without you being just the way you are, there would not be this beautyto grace the house.'Each of us has our own unique flaw.

But it's the cracks and flaws weeach have that make our lives together so very interesting andrewarding.

You've just got to take each person for what they are and look for thegood in them.SO, to all of my cracked pot friends, have a great day and remember tosmell the flowers on your side of the path!

A family reunites after 42 years

After 42 years and a lot of ground work by my youngest sister , my mother , her partner and my sister were on a plane to Queensland to finally reunite with a long lost relative...My mothers father, our grandfather....

Unfortunately dimentia has taken it`s toll and my grandfather had very little memory of my mother and as for my sister he had never met her...Infact he never knew she existed ....

The reunion went well though and the nursng staff were delighted to know after 6 years of being in their care that our grandfather had family out there....

This photo and the one below is of the grounds of the nursing facility where our grandfather has been residing....

My sister, mother and grandfather.....Apparently he didn`t have very much in possessions, especially the basics like PJ`s clothes ect...So mum went out and restocked his supplies which he was very greatful for....

They also took him out for lunch at the local RSL...He was a little out of his comfort zone as he didn`t get out often but has a good time all the same.... My sister and grandfather.....

My sister is planning on a return trip back to Queensland at the end of the year to visit him again....

I have a new man

All went well with hubby....

1 week in hospital and he came out a new man...

No more staying in bed for days on end ( so far) that is....

It`s all looking positive and the new medication seems to be working in his pain department....

And boy did he put some weight on within that week....

What I have lost he has easily gained which naturally has caused some jealously...lol...

So now he is on a diet...

No more of the good stuff for him which will be interesting to say the least because of his sweet tooth addiction....hahaha

As for home life with the kids Krystal is a single woman these days...

The boyfriend did the dirty on her..I was somewhat worried there for a while as she wasn`t eating but now she has picked herself up mentally and all is well...

I picked up her dress for her up and coming formal...My gosh i`m not biased much but she is going to look like a little princess.....

As for Daniel well that`s a different ball game altogether...

For 2 days now he has flatly refused to attend school...His behaviour is totally irratic and i`m at a loss on which way to turn...

I had to ring the school today and tell them what has been going on and they are going to try and get me some help....

I`m waiting to hear back from them....

Meanwhile I have placed him in his room and having to listen to the abuse that he kindly hurls in my direction....

Hubby is recommending that I take time out for myself now...

He seems to think he will be able to cope for a week from my absence and i`m seriously thinking about taking him up on the offer before I burn out completely....

We`ll see what happens....

Oxycontin Life rulers

Ahhhh stress don`t you just love it....

Life is on the go non stop lately..

If it`s not the kids with school or extra activities it`s hubby with health issues...

I tell you people I feel like a bloody taxi service, head cook and that little fairy that miraculously comes in to clean the inside and outside of the house...lol

I often ask myself the question "Would I have it any other way"???

Hmmmm let`s see..

Some things I would definitely like to change but seems certain elements in my life are out of my control....

One thing that is changing is the medication my husband is taking...

For way too many years now he has been on those dreaded tablets Oxy Contin..

Life rulers I call them...You are so limited as to where you can go and what you can do...

So today is the beginning of a new start...

He is in hospital to have his medication changed...

Naturally he is feeling apprehensive about it all as these tablets are highly addictive so in a way he is loosing his security blanket but is prepared and willing to change....

For the past 10 years or so our life as a family has been put on hold because of these rotten tablets and what makes it worse is that they no longer work for him...

So his doctor and of course hubby have come up with a plan to get rid of this life holding problem starting today...

How did he get to this point you may ask???..

Well a certain doctor had no hope for hubby`s future...He had written him off giving him, tops 8 months to live...

This was when they found the brain tumor, so to make him feel more comfortable he prescribed heavy drugs....

Oh and then there was the small matter of forgetting to tell us that they are highly addictive....

So here we are today 10 years on and going strong in the living department and my husband has to resort to this to try and gain his life back....

He will win as he is strong and he is doing this , one for himself and secondly for his family....

Kids having kids

I honestly thought I had put my 15 year old on the right path in thinking about his future and how far he could go in life....

WRONG...

What the hell is wrong with kids of today???

He has buggered up what chances he had by going out and getting his girlfriend pregnant...

Yes, it`s the real deal this time..

Both of them 15 years old and bringing a poor innocent little baby into the world...Neither of them have a source of income, no accomodation, nothing.....

And they are going ahead with the pregnancy..

Mind you I wasn`t told directly by either of them...

I actually found out through friends of his as he hasn`t bothered to contact me STILL....

Rang his father of the news and that was a total waste of time...

Idon`t knowwhy I bother...

The response I got was "he is getting his family out of the way early"....

Any wonder I divorced the idiot...

I have accepted the fact that this has happened mind you I am none too happy about it...

Deep down I knew that this would eventuate....

I am just worried for this new little life that is coming into the world especially as my son has an anger problem.....

He has to get himself right before taking on a huge responsibilty such as this....

Just something else for me to worry about...

Day`s or should that be weeks of our lives...

My life is getting busier and busier these days, not finding much time for the little things in life which I like to do such as blogging.... So much has been going on so where to start... Firstly Daniel had an enjoyable birthday...We went out as a family to tea and he thoroughly enjoyed that....Matt`s eldest daughter took him out for the afternoon, just the two of them....Movies and lunch so yes he had the royal treatment.... School life I thought was on the improve for him...He seemed to have settled down, getting work done and the teacher was writing positive feedback in his diary but then we had a set back....Someone at school riled him up and he retaliated by throwing something at them...5 days suspension from school...Next week I am meeting with the school psyhcologist so hopefully she will be able to help him.... Krystal is now feeling the pressure of year 12.....Everything is due , assignments ect....She was up until 2.30am trying to get assignments finished....Let`s just say she didn`t look her best the next morning...lol I`m sure she will do well though... Matt finally had his operation this week...Poor love he was so nervous, always is when it comes to ops.....They found 3 growths in the bowel and removed them..Good news was they weren`t cancerous YET....Apparently if they had of been left much longer then it could of turned....He is feeling rather sore at the moment but he like myself are relieved.....I try to be the positive one for both of us , so when I heard the good news it was like a tonne of weight had been lifted off my shoulders.....Some good fortune finally...He has also been trying new anti convulsant medication for his epilepsy....So far it`s been all good...No seizures in the past two weeks....Maybe these new tablets are doing the job.... And now we come to my run away son....It`s been 10 weeks since he has been out of home....In those 10 weeks I have seen him on numerous occassions , shopping or school...It looks like he wants nothing to do with me...He`ll speak with Daniel and Krystal but when it comes to me he`ll run the other way when he sees me...One time I went to speak to him he turned and ran...I must have been on really bad mother to him if he feels the need to do this...Naturally I was very upset but more upset because he has been telling lies to his grandparents that I have been the one ignoring him.....Krystal god love her has gone in defending me to her nana but the nana can`t see past the things Joshua has been telling her...Krystal got very angry and upset so now she doesn`t visit her grandparents very often....I wrote him a letter the other day as this seems the only way of communicating with him...He won`t answer calls .....I`m now waiting to see if I get a response back....Then to top everything off I found out last night that he is ENGAGED to his girlfriend (yes the one who gave him and us so much grief)....Oh and let`s not forget the fact that he is still only 15 years old..... Sorry long post I know...These are just a few of the things that`s been going on in my life...Hopefully I`ll find the time to be a little more regular...I`m actually writing this post at 7am where it`s lovely and quiet.....

I`ve aged 10 years withing an hour

I`m really not sure as to whether my nerves can with stand these driving lessons for much longer.....

I decided my daughter needed to master the art of steering and turning corners before we ventured out onto the roads so it was a carpark for now.....

Her confidence has increased with the handling of the car so I asked her to park the car.....

We pulled into the park no probs until it came to stop....

She forgot to brake

Only one of the most important parts of driving...lol

We ended up going cross country....

Over the curb , into the dirt and just happened to miss a tree.....

OMG my life flashed before me.....

Driving lesson number two was definitely over with for that day....hahaha

My poor car won`t be able to take much more of this kind of cruelty....

Never mind my nerves....

The grey hair is suddenly turning white...lol

Was down and out for a while

It turns out what I thought was a cold actually was the flu...

Boy oh boy was I sick hence the no blogging...

I wouldn`t wish this on my worst enemy..

I think it`s been at least 10 years since my last bout of the flu...

Kids are just wonderful in sharing...lol'

I`m only just starting to feel normal again, even managing to do a wee bit of housework and didn`t it need doing...

Sadly this week we had another passing of a family member....The past two years we have lost 7 wonderful people....

Lately it feels like our social life is beginning to revolve around funerals....

But as I said to hubby we are getting in that age bracket now where we will lose some close people in our lives....

Getting older sucks sometimes....

We had a birthday party amongst the sickness and sadness which broke the monotony of it all....

It was held at a bowling ally....

The kids, Krystal and Daniel had a ball as it was their first experience at bowling...

Frankly Krystal sucked at it but Daniel was quite impressive even managing to get a strike....

He is hooked now and wants to go again....

His birthday is this Friday so I might take him for a treat....

Finding lost family

Some week it`s been..

I really don`t know where it`s gone...

Already Friday tomorrow and not one lousy day have I been able to sleep in...

I must be getting old..

Don`t they say the older you get the less sleep you need???..

I`m starting to fit that bill I believe..lol

Recently my youngest sister has been doing a family tree with some remarkable results...

She has gone back as far as the 16th century on my mothers side of the family....

She also found pictures of our late great great great grandfather and grandmother....

The clothes back then were certainly alot to be desired...

Glad I wasn`t born back then..

Not sure whether I would have fitted in...lol....

Having done all this my sister thought that she would try and find our grandfather and after many months she has finally found his whereabouts...

Apparently after he left my grandmother he chose to also lose contact with the entire family...

Why , i`m not sure...

Another one of those skeletons in the cupboard that isn`t to be let out....

I have one photo of him back when I was four years old where he was nursing me...

My only reminder of my grandfather...

Sadly I do not remember him....

As for my youngest brother and sister he has never met them...

He is now residing in Queensland in a nursing home....

My sister has made up a family album of all us kids and now our kids and in a months time she and my mother are going to fly over there to visit him....

All this time we thought that he may have passed on so you can imagine the surprise when we were all told he is still alive....

The nursing home staff have been wonderful as my sister has been corresponding through them and they were kind enough to send a photo of what he looks like today..

Our day out on the town

My goodness already one week of school holidays has gone.....

It was certainly a quiet week at that with the youngest son having stayed at his big sisters home for a few days...

He thoroughly enjoyed himself as they took him ice skating....

He came home with some bruises from the experience..lol....

So this week it`s my turn to find some form of entertainment for the kids....

The weather looked bleak but eventually the sun came out so it was a trip to town and visit the museum......

But first a pit stop as I needed a caffeine fix.....

Nothing like a good vienna coffee with lots of whipped cream....

Daniel chose a hot chocolate with marshmallows and Krystal had a white hot chocolate....

I tell you if you have never tried one you don`t know what you`re missing...Absolutely delicious....Krystal reckons it`s a cup of heaven...lol...

Then it was off to the museum....

So much to see and Daniel was full of questions which was good to see....

He showed a lot of interest and wanted to know the why`s, how`s and when`s of just about everything......

Actually I was quite exhausted in the end from all of his questions....

He was mostly fascinated with the animals..

What kid wouldn`t be....

After the museum it was off to have some lunch then a tram trip back to the car....

To finish a jam packed day we visited the local aquarium shop where I bought myself some tropical fish and then he spotted it....

A YABBY...A must have in the eyes of an 11 year old boy.....

So now we have nipper....

Yes the yabby has a name...lol.....

An excited boy and me who is ready to take on the world...

Our two pooches certainly know how to hog the heater on these cold winter nights.....

If they were any closer they would be on fire themselves....

This is my new pride and joy....

Hubby and youngest son bought me a treasure chest for Mothers day...

I`m still yet to work out what I will put in my treasure chest....

I was thinking along the lines of something like a time capsule...

Things that are or have been important to me over the years...

I`ll have to ponder on that one....

And this is puss laying on the end of our bed looking quite comfortable I might add....

She does make the most of it as I don`t like any of the pets in on our bed....And she knows it too...lol Father and son on our day out at the movies..... It was good to be able to have all of us out for the day as it`s a rare occassion due to hubby`s ill health.....

They are posers aren`t they...lol....

Lifes been good this week except for Daniel being unwell...

You know it`s ashame but when he is unwell it makes him like what I call "a normal kid"....Cruel I know but with him being so hyperactive , whenever he is struck down with an illness it brings him back to a normal level....

He is rather excited at the moment as he will be staying with his eldest sister, "matt`s daughter from his first marriage"....

Today he packed his bags ready for Monday morning....

This will be a big deal for him as he never stays away from home let alone for a few days....

My baby is growing up...

BOO HOO....

And then there is me, what will I do with myself?????

OMG have I got a list ready....

Watch out world as i`ll be free for a couple of days....lol

A busy week so far

What an extraordinary week that was with so many unexpected deaths especially that of Michael Jackson....

Such a sad ending to an intriguing man....

What worries me now is the fate of the innocent children...

It`s certainly going to be an interesting story that is yet to unfold....

This week has already been a busy one for me and it`s only Tuesday...

Firstly hubby had his MRI scan done last night...

Next test to come is an EEG which is booked in for the middle of next month...

Hopefully we will be able to get some results from that...

Saturday we had a family day at the movies..

Well all except for Krystal as she had to work...

We went and saw Transformers and we all loved it..

I was a bit worried at the length of the movie as Daniel does have a tendency to get bored quite quickly but with this movie there was opportunity to bored as it was action packed all the way through.....

Sunday I had to make an emergency visit to the doctors for Daniel...He woke with the hugest gland swelling I have ever seen..He could hardly speak...A 3 hour wait in the surgery...

Eventually we saw the doctor and he revealed a very severe case of infected tonsils...

He is now on a course of antibiotics for 2 weeks....

He seems to be a bit better today but the glands are still swollen....

Looks like there will be no school this week for him....

It usually happens this time of year for him...

Oh well school holidays next week.....

And finally today it`s hubby`s birthday....

I made his favourite for tea..Pumpkin soup and then had a delicious mud cake with whipped cream for dessert....

The kids made a fuss of him and especially went out of their way to buy numbered candles just in case he forgot how old he was turning...lol

Ladtthing...

Good luck to those who have entered the OZ lotto draw for tonight...

A cool 90 million...WOW...

Wouldn`t it be a life changing event...

I`ve got my ticket but aint holding my breath...

The Bad ass is rising to the surface

Sadly my hubby is still going through some grief with family members from his side regarding his mothers estate..Not that she had much...

I know it`s not just us that this is happening too as i have heard some real horror stories about what lengths family members will go too...

What makes me so sad is that these people are supposed to be "devout Christians"

They are DEFINITELY not showing any signs of this...

The accussations and horrible things that have been said by them are simply dreadful...

Then there are the threats about coming to our home...

Not alone mind you ....

OMG wrong thing to do especially when it comes to my hubby...

I am very protective of him more so because he is not well....

In the end I have said to hubby you need to wipe your hands of it all...

We have a lawyer, leave it in their hands....

Concentrate on getting yourself right...

Now I am monitoring all calls coming into the house...

He doesn`t need any more undue stress caused by money hungry parasites...

And to be honest if I saw them (not that there is much chance of that) there certainly WOULD NOT be much in the way of pleasantries coming their way....

After all I did a survey on Facebook which says I am 96% BAD ASS...lmao

A chill in the air

These past few mornings have been soooo cold but the days have turned out lovely with blue skies...

Actually it feels more like spring when the weather is like this....

So the kids are over their sickness and not before time as my girl has her year 12 exams this week....

She seems to be coping ok and not stressing....

The last one is today....

Had my stitches out without too much drama...The wound had knitted underneath but there was still a bit of an opening at the top so I have to keep a bandage on for anther couple of weeks.....This means no dishes still....lol

We finally had some good news within the family....

Matt`s youngest daughter is expecting again....This will be his 8th grandchild....

She just had a baby in December so they will grow up close in age.....

My teen son seems to be settling in at his grandparents...

I keep in touch with them regularly....

Seems though my son still has a grudge when it comes to me as I saw him the other day and he turned away from me without a word being spoken....

Maybe it`s his guilt on the way he last spoke to me....

MAYBE....

Well best get my bum away from this computer for a while....

Housework beckons and then a little retail therapy.....

And we all know how I do love that retail therapy....

Have a great day everyone......

Home life is starting to settle

It`

It`s always the way...

Whenever you havee an injury 9 times out of 10 you`ll knock it and i`ve certainly been doing that especially when i`m one for not sitting still....

Tuesday I finally get the stitches out and I can`t wait.....

Doing chores left handed is wearing thin and its tiring.....lol

On a more positive note if you can call it that, my teen son is residing with his grandparents....

I must admit, since his move out of the family home so much stress has gone..

Daniel and Krystal are back to laughing and doing things together ....

My husband and I have noticed the difference especially with Daniel, he is a happier kid again...

One day my son may get in contact with me again...

All I can do is wait.....

I finally got to have a meeting with his school teacher and she has put in place special arrangements which will cater for Daniels needs..

Now it`s up to Daniel to try his best....

It`s been freezing here today.....

It didn`t even make 12 degrees......

I`ve been in front of the eater for most of the day while the two kids went out to town...

Ahhh I remember those days well...Young and carefree and the weather didn`t dictate as to what you can and can`t do.....lmao....

Letting go

Lifes been just dandy this week she says sarcastically....

Teenage son decided to waltz in home a week after his disappearance like nothing had happened....

I asked him what he thinks he is doing and naturally he came back with a smart remark....

The chip on his shoulder at the moment is more like a boulder and I can`t have someone who chooses to ignore house rules and have total disrespect for me live under the same roof...

So I gave him a choice of either going to his fathers or his grandparnts...

Presently he is at his grandparents until we can get hold of his father not that I expect any of us will get much help from him....

I rang him when our son went missing and the response I got was "what do you want me to do about it" and then hung up on me.....

My son hates me with a passion at the moment and he now wants to divorce me....lol

What it boils down too is he wants to give up school but the law states you can`t leave school before the age of 17 unless you have a job.....

He says he wants to work but is too lazy to get out there and look for a job...

Every job he has applied for has either been myself or my daughters doing ...

So now he is on his own....He doesn`t want to live with me anymore which has been obvious for some time....

Then yesterday after all of this went on I thought I would get stuck into clening up the kitchen which entailed dishes...

Big mistake...

A broken mug took revenge on me , damn thing...

3 stitches between the webbing of the thumb and first finger....

Topped my day off perfectly..

Thre is talk I may have to see a micro surgeon as I have tingling running down the side of my thumb which means I could have damaged the nerve....

Well I don`t half do things....lol

I`m hoping that it will be ok and come good....

One good thing to come out of this is NO DISHES for a week....

Isn`t that a shame????...lol

It`s a dark place here at the bottom of this rock pit..

I`m pretty sure I`ve hit rock bottom in the emotion department....

Usually I am the most patient person especially when it comes to my kids BUT this weekend I really lost it...

One of my sons pushed me too far and something in me snapped....

Don`t worry I didn`t take it out on him but I did take it out on the furniture and on anything that was in my path....

A major melt down....The trouble is I know i`m still not out of the woods yet....

I can`t sleep and i`m not eating properly...Caffeine and cigarettes seems to be on the menu....

In doing this my bronchitis has really flared up and what is frustrating me is i`m crying at the drop of a hat....

It`s not me at all...

The stresses of my life have caught up with me and dragged me down big time...

I feel absolutely useless as i`m struggling to deal with everyday life which in normal circumstances I find easy to deal with....

I can`t think straight and can`t make what used to be simple decisions....

My teenage son is taking advantage of me when i`m at my weakest....

I grounded him for something he did wrong...

He chose to ignore me and went out anyway....

Im at the point where I can`t manage him any longer so feel my only option is he really needs to go back to live with his father....

His behaviour isn`t doing this family any favours especially when my youngest looks up to his big brother...

Hubby wants to take us all away this long weekend and break the monotony of everything....

This might be just what we all need....

We are looking to the future

Starting to feel a little drained now...

I think everything has finally caught up with me and the family...

The two boys are home sick with a cold which is somewhat a bit of a worry...

We have confirmed reports of swine flu here and Adelaide and what mkes me so angry is some kids who are supposed to be home for a week are out and about hitting public shopping centres.....

This is no joke people and your kids should be behind closed doors....

I`m having to keep a close eye on the boys as they both suffer from asthma....

Hubby and I are now starting to talk about future plans...

Where we want to be in 5 years time....

A couple of Christmas`s ago we went to Victor Harbour for a holiday and we both loved the place so much we could see us living there permanately....

As long as things go to plan our dream could come true.....

A nice quiet life in a beautiful seaside town.....

And the best part is I will be well catered for as there are PLENTY of shops....lol

Farewell to two beautiful ladies

Hello everyone...Sorry for the absence but unfortunately the family had a lot to deal with these past few weeks...

Firstly we had the sad news that my nan passed away...

Last Friday we said our goodbyes to her at a lovely ceremony with many family and friends....

All of her grandchildren were there and to have all of us together remembering the good days spent with our nan was a remarkable feeling....

It`s been many many years where we have been altogether at the one time as most now live interstate....

On the Friday morning of my nan`s funeral Matt and I received a phone call from the nursing home abut Matt`s mum...

Unfortunately she also passed away that morning....

As one would imagine we were distraught at this sad news....

We knew that this day was coming but not quite so soon.....

Today we said our final goodbyes to the most beautiful natured woman I have ever known....

She always managed to see the good in everyone and not once have I ever heard this lady have a bad word to say about anyone...

Matt and myself are ever so greatful that we were able to take her on her last trip away to Kangaroo Island this Christmas just gone....

We heard today from the minister that she thoroughly enjoyed herself and she was glad that she had the opportunity to go "over seas"...lol

Matt has taken the loss very hard...

He was extremely close to his mother and i`m havng to keep a close eye on him....

He had to make a trip to the doctors because he wasn`t coping emotionally....

I am hoping now that after today he has gained some closure....

Ofcourse it`s going to take time to get over with such a loss and as each day passes it will get easier.....

In the meantime Matt`s operation was put on hold but come Monday he is booked in to have the procedure done.....

He tried to tell me he wasn`t going ahead with it but it`s just his emotions getting in the way....

Thankfully he has come to his senses and it`s his time to now start looking after himself....

So now we are left with the wonderful memories of two beautiful ladies....

Both have been inspirational to me and I thank them both for their wisdom....

Happy mum`s day

I feel dreadful that I haven`t visited anyone on their blogs but life has been terribly busy this past week....

My nan isn`t doing too well and is in critical care...The doctors aren`t giving her or us much hope.....

Then there is Matt`s mum who is in pretty much the same boat....She is very incoherent these days and sad to say but it`s only a matter of time now.....

It`s all come at a rather bad time as hubby is going in for his operation this Friay and he is stressed to the max worrying about his mother of course...It`s understandable.....

In the middle of all this we did have celebrations for my daughters Birthday....

Spoilt rotten (by me ) as always...lol

It`s certainly a month for Birthdays as my youngest sister celebrates hers tomorrow along with it being Mothers Day....A big celebratory party up at my mothers restaurant I well imagine...She does like to party...lol..

This will make Joshua happy as he is heading up there tomorrow for his week of work experience....

I`ll have to lay down the ground rules but i`m sure my mother will keep a close eye on him as she knows what her own children (there were five of us) were like at his age....lmao

Still a few more birthdays to come with other family members celebrating within the month of May....

I do hope all those beautiful mums out there have a wonderful Mothers day and they are spoilt like all mum`s should ....

I know I will be as i`m getting a lamb roast cooked for me...

Can`t wait....

Enjoy the day .....

A new beginning in South Australia..No more plastic bags

As of tomorrow here in south Australia a new era of no more plastic shopping bags

Yep a total ban which means we have to use recyclable bags...

I`m not sure how i`m going to cope as I am always forgetting to take my bags out from the boot of the car...

In fact so many people do....

The shops will cater for those forgetful ones such as myself with biodegradable bags for a cost of 10 cents per bag or 20 cents for the upgraded paper bag version with handles....

And naturally purchase another, and I say another reusable bag at the going price of $1 because I am always buying them....

I have more than enough to cope with my weekly shopping chore....

So come tomorrow I will presume there will be some irate customers who will kick themselves because no doubtfully they will go do some shopping and where will their bags be...

In the boot of their car of course...lol