i`m an absolute mess

I sit here in the early hours of the morning and think to myself "where did I go wrong"????

What did I do that was so bad to be treated this way????.....

My teenage son Joshua has run away from home with his girlfriend.....They were last seen at the bus stop this afternoon and no one has heard or seen from them since....

I`m sick from worry...

And the worst part is I didn`t see it coming...There has been no indication that he wasn`t happy at home, nothing!!!!!

Now I blame myself.....I don`t know where to look, how to contact his friends, nothing....

I feel absolutely usless, powerless to fix it......

His mobile and the girlfriends mobiles are turned off and they have shut everyone out....

Then I had to deal with a drunken ex husband saying "what`s going on at home"???....What did you do to him??? Blah blah blah.....No frigging help what so ever except to make me feel 10 times worse than what I already am.....

The mother of the girlfriend and I have put out a missing persons report with the police and now we just wait....I`m climbing the walls, frantic and just praying that no harm has come to them....

I just need to know that they are ok.....