I have a new man

All went well with hubby....

1 week in hospital and he came out a new man...

No more staying in bed for days on end ( so far) that is....

It`s all looking positive and the new medication seems to be working in his pain department....

And boy did he put some weight on within that week....

What I have lost he has easily gained which naturally has caused some jealously...lol...

So now he is on a diet...

No more of the good stuff for him which will be interesting to say the least because of his sweet tooth addiction....hahaha

As for home life with the kids Krystal is a single woman these days...

The boyfriend did the dirty on her..I was somewhat worried there for a while as she wasn`t eating but now she has picked herself up mentally and all is well...

I picked up her dress for her up and coming formal...My gosh i`m not biased much but she is going to look like a little princess.....

As for Daniel well that`s a different ball game altogether...

For 2 days now he has flatly refused to attend school...His behaviour is totally irratic and i`m at a loss on which way to turn...

I had to ring the school today and tell them what has been going on and they are going to try and get me some help....

I`m waiting to hear back from them....

Meanwhile I have placed him in his room and having to listen to the abuse that he kindly hurls in my direction....

Hubby is recommending that I take time out for myself now...

He seems to think he will be able to cope for a week from my absence and i`m seriously thinking about taking him up on the offer before I burn out completely....

We`ll see what happens....

Oxycontin Life rulers

Ahhhh stress don`t you just love it....

Life is on the go non stop lately..

If it`s not the kids with school or extra activities it`s hubby with health issues...

I tell you people I feel like a bloody taxi service, head cook and that little fairy that miraculously comes in to clean the inside and outside of the house...lol

I often ask myself the question "Would I have it any other way"???

Hmmmm let`s see..

Some things I would definitely like to change but seems certain elements in my life are out of my control....

One thing that is changing is the medication my husband is taking...

For way too many years now he has been on those dreaded tablets Oxy Contin..

Life rulers I call them...You are so limited as to where you can go and what you can do...

So today is the beginning of a new start...

He is in hospital to have his medication changed...

Naturally he is feeling apprehensive about it all as these tablets are highly addictive so in a way he is loosing his security blanket but is prepared and willing to change....

For the past 10 years or so our life as a family has been put on hold because of these rotten tablets and what makes it worse is that they no longer work for him...

So his doctor and of course hubby have come up with a plan to get rid of this life holding problem starting today...

How did he get to this point you may ask???..

Well a certain doctor had no hope for hubby`s future...He had written him off giving him, tops 8 months to live...

This was when they found the brain tumor, so to make him feel more comfortable he prescribed heavy drugs....

Oh and then there was the small matter of forgetting to tell us that they are highly addictive....

So here we are today 10 years on and going strong in the living department and my husband has to resort to this to try and gain his life back....

He will win as he is strong and he is doing this , one for himself and secondly for his family....

Kids having kids

I honestly thought I had put my 15 year old on the right path in thinking about his future and how far he could go in life....

WRONG...

What the hell is wrong with kids of today???

He has buggered up what chances he had by going out and getting his girlfriend pregnant...

Yes, it`s the real deal this time..

Both of them 15 years old and bringing a poor innocent little baby into the world...Neither of them have a source of income, no accomodation, nothing.....

And they are going ahead with the pregnancy..

Mind you I wasn`t told directly by either of them...

I actually found out through friends of his as he hasn`t bothered to contact me STILL....

Rang his father of the news and that was a total waste of time...

Idon`t knowwhy I bother...

The response I got was "he is getting his family out of the way early"....

Any wonder I divorced the idiot...

I have accepted the fact that this has happened mind you I am none too happy about it...

Deep down I knew that this would eventuate....

I am just worried for this new little life that is coming into the world especially as my son has an anger problem.....

He has to get himself right before taking on a huge responsibilty such as this....

Just something else for me to worry about...

Day`s or should that be weeks of our lives...

My life is getting busier and busier these days, not finding much time for the little things in life which I like to do such as blogging.... So much has been going on so where to start... Firstly Daniel had an enjoyable birthday...We went out as a family to tea and he thoroughly enjoyed that....Matt`s eldest daughter took him out for the afternoon, just the two of them....Movies and lunch so yes he had the royal treatment.... School life I thought was on the improve for him...He seemed to have settled down, getting work done and the teacher was writing positive feedback in his diary but then we had a set back....Someone at school riled him up and he retaliated by throwing something at them...5 days suspension from school...Next week I am meeting with the school psyhcologist so hopefully she will be able to help him.... Krystal is now feeling the pressure of year 12.....Everything is due , assignments ect....She was up until 2.30am trying to get assignments finished....Let`s just say she didn`t look her best the next morning...lol I`m sure she will do well though... Matt finally had his operation this week...Poor love he was so nervous, always is when it comes to ops.....They found 3 growths in the bowel and removed them..Good news was they weren`t cancerous YET....Apparently if they had of been left much longer then it could of turned....He is feeling rather sore at the moment but he like myself are relieved.....I try to be the positive one for both of us , so when I heard the good news it was like a tonne of weight had been lifted off my shoulders.....Some good fortune finally...He has also been trying new anti convulsant medication for his epilepsy....So far it`s been all good...No seizures in the past two weeks....Maybe these new tablets are doing the job.... And now we come to my run away son....It`s been 10 weeks since he has been out of home....In those 10 weeks I have seen him on numerous occassions , shopping or school...It looks like he wants nothing to do with me...He`ll speak with Daniel and Krystal but when it comes to me he`ll run the other way when he sees me...One time I went to speak to him he turned and ran...I must have been on really bad mother to him if he feels the need to do this...Naturally I was very upset but more upset because he has been telling lies to his grandparents that I have been the one ignoring him.....Krystal god love her has gone in defending me to her nana but the nana can`t see past the things Joshua has been telling her...Krystal got very angry and upset so now she doesn`t visit her grandparents very often....I wrote him a letter the other day as this seems the only way of communicating with him...He won`t answer calls .....I`m now waiting to see if I get a response back....Then to top everything off I found out last night that he is ENGAGED to his girlfriend (yes the one who gave him and us so much grief)....Oh and let`s not forget the fact that he is still only 15 years old..... Sorry long post I know...These are just a few of the things that`s been going on in my life...Hopefully I`ll find the time to be a little more regular...I`m actually writing this post at 7am where it`s lovely and quiet.....

I`ve aged 10 years withing an hour

I`m really not sure as to whether my nerves can with stand these driving lessons for much longer.....

I decided my daughter needed to master the art of steering and turning corners before we ventured out onto the roads so it was a carpark for now.....

Her confidence has increased with the handling of the car so I asked her to park the car.....

We pulled into the park no probs until it came to stop....

She forgot to brake

Only one of the most important parts of driving...lol

We ended up going cross country....

Over the curb , into the dirt and just happened to miss a tree.....

OMG my life flashed before me.....

Driving lesson number two was definitely over with for that day....hahaha

My poor car won`t be able to take much more of this kind of cruelty....

Never mind my nerves....

The grey hair is suddenly turning white...lol

Was down and out for a while

It turns out what I thought was a cold actually was the flu...

Boy oh boy was I sick hence the no blogging...

I wouldn`t wish this on my worst enemy..

I think it`s been at least 10 years since my last bout of the flu...

Kids are just wonderful in sharing...lol'

I`m only just starting to feel normal again, even managing to do a wee bit of housework and didn`t it need doing...

Sadly this week we had another passing of a family member....The past two years we have lost 7 wonderful people....

Lately it feels like our social life is beginning to revolve around funerals....

But as I said to hubby we are getting in that age bracket now where we will lose some close people in our lives....

Getting older sucks sometimes....

We had a birthday party amongst the sickness and sadness which broke the monotony of it all....

It was held at a bowling ally....

The kids, Krystal and Daniel had a ball as it was their first experience at bowling...

Frankly Krystal sucked at it but Daniel was quite impressive even managing to get a strike....

He is hooked now and wants to go again....

His birthday is this Friday so I might take him for a treat....

Finding lost family

Some week it`s been..

I really don`t know where it`s gone...

Already Friday tomorrow and not one lousy day have I been able to sleep in...

I must be getting old..

Don`t they say the older you get the less sleep you need???..

I`m starting to fit that bill I believe..lol

Recently my youngest sister has been doing a family tree with some remarkable results...

She has gone back as far as the 16th century on my mothers side of the family....

She also found pictures of our late great great great grandfather and grandmother....

The clothes back then were certainly alot to be desired...

Glad I wasn`t born back then..

Not sure whether I would have fitted in...lol....

Having done all this my sister thought that she would try and find our grandfather and after many months she has finally found his whereabouts...

Apparently after he left my grandmother he chose to also lose contact with the entire family...

Why , i`m not sure...

Another one of those skeletons in the cupboard that isn`t to be let out....

I have one photo of him back when I was four years old where he was nursing me...

My only reminder of my grandfather...

Sadly I do not remember him....

As for my youngest brother and sister he has never met them...

He is now residing in Queensland in a nursing home....

My sister has made up a family album of all us kids and now our kids and in a months time she and my mother are going to fly over there to visit him....

All this time we thought that he may have passed on so you can imagine the surprise when we were all told he is still alive....

The nursing home staff have been wonderful as my sister has been corresponding through them and they were kind enough to send a photo of what he looks like today..